Someone rightly said,
“Once You Have Figured Out How Respect Tastes Like, It Tastes Better Than Attention.”
And so, because I have learned self-respect matters more than love or relationship, I’ll walk away and never look back. I realized that I have forsaken every single desire of mine in the name of your preposterous salvation. More than anything, I have lost my happiness the most. I have sacrificed a thousand smiles and accepted infinite tears. And yet, have received nothing but sheer censure and pessimism.
But Not Anymore.
If I want something, I’ll take it. If my being self-centered is what makes you realize the pain and suffering I have gone through, I’ll become one. I am ready to be called a Narcissist. You know why? Because I can feel a storm inside me, something that makes it difficult to survive this hatred and cruelty of yours; and if this means sabotaging the relationship that I have with you, I’ll.
Do not think of my softness as my weakness. Honey and wildfire, both have the color of gold. I am a force you can’t withstand. I am a passion you cannot hold. I am the darkness you can’t embrace. I am the sky beyond your limit. I am the beauty beyond your imagination. I am the ocean whose mystery you cannot unravel. I am the quake that will shake you from within. I am the sweetest chastisement you will yearn for. I am the smile you’ll cry out for. You’ll crave for each letter of my name.
I have let gone off people in the past and I can do it again, with greater preeminence and ease. My emotions do not go in vain, my time doesn’t go valueless. Because I evolve. I evolve into a better human being and a stronger woman.
This time again, I have evolved into an improvised individual formed of learnings and experiences. I have evolved into someone your level of maturity can’t comprehend. So, today, I shout out loud, “I am proud of myself for being immensely considerate and selfless. I am proud of being able to love beyond my permissible limits and rise higher after heart breaks. I am proud of being courageously able to stand out in the world where I, as a woman, am objectified and questioned. I feel proud while leafing through the pages of my life by means of this article and confessing to each of you right now. Because in a world of hypocrites, pretense, pseudo-humans, I have evolved into an improvised version and a powerful woman who knows what she deserves.”
But now, I want to turn the tables. I want you to walk in my shoes and face the world. I want to set myself free from every societal limitation and relationships that tend to bound me. I no more seek validation from the undeserving to prove myself worthy. And certainly in a world of ours, when women tend to become the way I have, they are called selfish and self-centered.